Lonely!

This is what I'm feeling at the moment!! After last post really really missing my hubby!!! Well I know you'll be thinking ... What about all that crap about .. Washing shirts, snoring, meals etc etc etc... Blah blah!! Well there's no substitute for companionship.. You know the sort that's like.. You know everything about that person and you also know how they feel at any given moment !! What they are even thinking!!! I love that!!! Forget all the irritating things all the bullshit.. If you happen to find that person in your life that matches you ... Nothing else matters!!

Soo as I was saying.... I miss him terribly!!! I've spent the weekend just doing my thing... Walking the beautiful seaside at the peninsular ... Listening to the most amazing beautiful music... Cooking.. ( blah.. Not my thing) but enjoying it... !! Sitting by the fire reading when it's cold outside but still my heart still is aching for my Dear John!!!   We've been in touch with phone calls and texting but it's not the same... Want  the eye contact.. Even if it's... Like .... Your pissing me off!!!  Other than all this I've been so proud of my kids.. Well that's the reason why we decided to do this here and there thingo.... One has had an amazing run with her play called... UGLY MUGS....!!!   www.malthousetheare.com.au/...ugly-mugs and another has secured a part in a film called ... My Brothers rage that is to be started in mid July... And I'm also proud of my other amazing daughter that is raising 3 incredible gorgeous children and is an amazing writer in her own right... Or is that rite!!! Lol...what I'm trying to say is... I am so blessed to have the most amazing family!!! I know it and I'm grateful.... Just have to find me!!!! 

What to do!!!! Arrrrrrr!!!!!

Sorry about the last post!! Wrote that just after new year and soooo much has happened since! Yes I've been soooo slack in writing again ! 😳 well that is the nature of blogs I guess... At least for me!  My husband and I ( eww I sound like the queen of England ) have a very successful business in Queensland but because all the loves  of my life ( mainly my kids and grand kids ) are in Melb !!! We have decided to now rent a place in Melb so we can stay every now and then to spend time with them!!  The only problem is John (husband ) has to keep flying back and forth  ( for the business) to keep me in the custom I'm used too!   It's a really tricky situation because although I love the time down here and the time I have alone I miss him terribly and never want to get used to not having him here with me!!! It's so easy to get used to doing your own thing! To not having to wash iron cook and clean after someone else! To not listen to them snore and keep you awake at night! To not have to explain where you are how long you'll be and whom your with!!! 😱.... Omg... Sounds like I'm pissed off already!!! 😂😂.... Not the case....YET.... !!     I don't know where this is leading me and at this stage in my life... For fuck sake( sorry) .. But at 65 yrs of age I can say fuck... I'm unsure!!! ... I love Port Douglas and the wild wonderful part of the world it is... The wonderful generous friends I have and the relaxed slow  atmosphere of the whole place!!! But I also love the exciting energy of Melbourne ... The shops , the people the restaurants the atmosphere the beaches the friends the family .... It's really a confronting time for me!!!  What does the future hold? Where will I end up? There's sooo much I love!  God I'm feeling sooooooo confused!

Ok !!  So here we r again... I'm posting another bit of stuff ... I was going to say shit until I remembered my NYR... Of not swearing !!! Have had the best Xmas where my husband John did not stress once on the Xmas holidays... A first!!!   Then off to Bali where we had an amazing time with my Nephew and his family .... Was a little depressed on return cause I was missing my gran kids ... .... So happy to say off to Melb to see them all for the weekend on valentines weekend!! Can't wait !!!